5.8.12
i am losing my fucking mind , slowly but surely .
the past couple of days i have been soooooooooooo excited to move to San Luis Obispo . my gma said its pronounced LOUISE , bitch wtf do you know ? uh no . i hate my family , i hate everyone around me . yea i said it . h a t e .
i am so sick and tired of being here , i feel like my life is not going anywhere , i wish that the thing with the lease in SLO would go how i expected . i was gonna go down their at the end of this month , find a job in hopefully a week - three . then in the mid of the month we were gonna move into an apartment . but i guess hella leases there dont start till july bc its such a college town and they are going by the schedule .
my main hope is that i can juggle a job work and school at the same time , not really a hope because there is no other way . i HAVE to . but i am just so fucking sick and tired of everything around me . friends ? who the fuck is that ? everyone in stockton is fucking scum . i cannot stand this fucking place . getting shot up , no jobs and everyone here and from here is just on hella drugs . like i honestly wanna just quit smoking weed when i move to SLO to save money and be able to completely work on school and pass .
i hate my family . i am so sick of these fat fucking bastards , like my family is so fucked up , dysfunctional as fuck . my gma was all whiney and shit like her ass always is when i said i was gonna move . but fuck it , shes the main reason i wanna get the fuck outta here . this house is so dirty , and they are all so fat and disrespectful to each other . i cannot stand to live in this fucked up ass house anymore .
k im tired of typing .
